During the 2021 birth of my daughter, I experienced complications from an internal hemorrhage due to a small uterine tear, leading to a 13-week postpartum bleeding period. For two years, I had no menstrual cycle, largely due to scar tissue that formed and caused fast-growing PCOS. When my cycle finally resumed, I had severe clotting issues that prompted my doctors to take action. Ultimately, I underwent surgery at 38, resulting in the loss of my uterus, both fallopian tubes, and one ovary. Now, I'm on gender-confirming hormone therapy to prevent early menopause. Despite developing an intense fear of another pregnancy, due to the trauma, I still deeply mourned having that choice taken from me.