Growing up in the early 2000s, diet culture had a very negative impact on my relationship with food and my body. Societal pressure and generational trauma ingrained in me that I was better off small and frail, rather than confident and healthy. Once I grew into adulthood, I was not prepared for the changes my body would undergo, and did not know how to properly fuel and move my body. This caused me to overcorrect and dive head first into an eating disorder to lose weight that was never a problem in the first place. Over the next ten years, this tapered off rather than came to an immediate end. Eating disorders are years long battles, and sometimes never go away completely. Relapses happen along the way, and what matters more is changing how you react to them. I am fortunate that I have reached a place of self care and acceptance, but this did not come without incredibly hard work and reflection.