Since I can remember I’ve been very sensitive, energetic and full of excitement for life, especially as a child, where I can recall this transforming into crippling anxiety and panic, causing me to suffer endless panic attacks to the point that it was my reality and had no idea until age eighteen that I had panic attacks and general anxiety disorder, with agoraphobia stemming from ADHD, which I put together on my own in 2022. After many years of drinking after work to relax my nerves, then slowly weening myself off it completely in my mid-thirties, I became open to the idea of being on the spectrum of neurodivergence, which my therapist later told me she felt I was on, with my ADHD plus more traits she noticed. Having been validated and gaining more perspective on these findings, I was able to forgive myself and others for being so hard on me, or for being hard on myself all those years while feeling different. I now know that I am not defined by ADHD and I can now use this knowledge to serve me as I’ve hacked how my brain works and can achieve flow state easily now. It’s taken me many years of self-improvement, self-love, vulnerability and openness to become more whole and complete, feeling more comfortable in my own skin, which I’ve very proud of! I was able to overcome my addiction to drinking and smoking week years prior to putting it all together, so I can really be proud of myself for sticking with sobriety even while still learning why I was self-medicating and anxious all my life. Gaining that needed perspective and confidence has been the game changer and has helped me to attain years of lasting deep inner-peace and a knowing that everything will be ok no matter what! I’m happy to say I’ve harnessed and transmuted that excitement and passion for life I had a child back after a spiritual awakening in 2014, that’s been ongoing, with many challenges, but mostly wonderful new opportunities to grow and explore, which I’m more open too now, as I see life as fun game to experience and shape the way that I feel is working and I’ve learned to focus on goals, dreams and projects in alignment with who I am now!