I'm a 32 year old woman who survived childhood sexual abuse and eventually got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have experience with self harming, eating disorders, the pain of losing friends over something you feel like you can't control, and the grief of cutting out toxic family members. I attempted suicide in my late teens and basically had to figure out how to recover from that and make a life for myself all on my own. It took me a long time to figure out how to have more control over my emotions, how to get through feelings of abandonment, how to resist impulsive behaviors, and how to begin forming a stable self-identity. I've wondered for a long time how I can use this pain and all the bad experiences to help others, and I hope I've finally found a way.